REstart

2010-01-18T04:18:00.002+08:00

ive shifted. actually. for quite awhile.

so peeps, ciaos. ^^

this is the link.

missmatherine.livejournal.com

2009-12-24T02:03:00.002+08:00

can you believe it??

within a month i found my primary one buddy and my kindergarten friend??? life is amazing cause God made it so.

i saw Ee Shven jie jie at amk hub the other day.
she was my primary one buddy. the one who brought me to the canteen, taught me how to buy food, where to queue and eat with me. buddy system. she was i think primary 5 back then? or was it 3 or 4? cant remember. hahas.

but, we used to keep in contact, with cards and everything till she lost my hse address and i changed my phone no. but, miraculously i saw her that day. ^^ God is good.

and my kindergarten friend!!!!
his mum walked past my mum's stall the other day and brought her daughter to dine at my mum's 3 days ago. Kelvin's elder sister! goodness! i havent seen them in like 9 to 10 years?? i rmb i used to go and stay over at their hse. Kelvin used to be a scardy cat. He likes the light on when he sleeps. never fails to irritate me much, cause i cant sleep with lights on. hahahas.

but, heard from mummy, he's in the army now. woah! speaking of time flies. hahahas.
he used to be very plump. okay, honesty. fat. hahahas. wonder how he is now. mummy says aunty invited us to visit during new year. yeay! (Y)

this is the best period in life.
i get to meet up with bacommers n love before year ends, meetup with lilin clara n fen, meeting lian and angelin tml. and friday church service ^^ and yadda yadda.. the list goes onnnnn..

time to hit the sack!
God bless everyone.
nights and swt dreams.

ps: its how amazing i dreamt of you last night. heehee. sweet one.

2009-12-21T19:36:00.003+08:00

a post for satan.

if it makes you happy to see me crumbling down, crushed and defeated. I'll not give you a chance again.

naivety, immaturity, irrational.
i had it all.

but, i didnt know it was all so bad till i seen it through one night of test. now, i know. i will change. sometimes, filtering is good. and even if i wanna clarify, i would need to be tactful and rational.

i shall kick my grumpy mode one side.
suppressed the devil effect and press on.

serving is never easy. but, i will press on. i will press on.
for the Lord, amen.

2009-12-21T18:49:00.002+08:00

i dont know where you got your information.

but, i definitely know. its not true.
casue i've done smth stupid and immature to have found out all these.

i cant believe i doubted them. and all theses thoughts grew as the satan sat laughing away.

for what doesnt kill me makes me stronger.

i believe in my Lord.
only what He says in true.

2009-12-21T02:14:00.002+08:00

to my sweetest baby on earth. SHENG RI KUAI LE. stop spreading stds aites! hahahas. later more grandsons also. badbad. must learn how to behave aites. alrdy 2 retarded grandsons liao. LOL!

anyways,
here you go! ^^

before that, for all December babies! Happy Birthday! ^^

and now!

2009-12-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

am in a %^(&@^#@$#@%&#*(@ mood.

cause i have a major lack of sleep. likka shag. =((

anyways, ive clean forgotten about today's meeting. sorry guys. jeff & julia's bday got me tired. hahahas. just kidding.

but, im feeling better now. looking at the videos we filmed just now. wait till i upload those from suern's camera
WAHAHAHAHAHAS!

so, today we celebrated jeffu's 21st with him. ^^
kinda cheated him ytd and said ill celebrate with him on wed. LOL.
then preparations etc. asked suern to blindfold him to lead him to his Birthday gift. but, in surprise of 21 lighted candles on 21 subway cookies!

hahas, nice right!
i kept my promise of no cakes. ^^

im likka brain dead now.
blog again tml. im only waiting for 12 am to comeee. =((

2009-12-20T03:01:00.003+08:00

and to this lovely pretty lady!

EILEEN ANG!! ^^ 17 only comes once to everyone. enjoy your first and last bit of 17!!! HAPPY SWEET 17! stay retarded, cute sweet and yummy! MAMA loves you! <3

2009-12-20T02:45:00.003+08:00

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i always think 21 is a big thing and still believe so. so ya, there you go. a blog post for you. ^^ we'll be friends for life if you ever stop bullying me. LOL!

promise we'll still be friends even when you look so retarded. hahahas ^^
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2009-12-20T01:41:00.009+08:00

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hi world.

today i can proudly proclaim, after 19years of blurness, i can finally differentiate which is the actual date for Christmas. its the 25th DEC!

hahas, i always thought it was on the 26th. likka se-rious-ly.

btw,
i saw this on the way. have always been wondering whats moove all about. i shall go google it and paste here.

and it's actually an advertising company. LOL! naise one.
moo moo eat grass. hahas.

drumming for service tml! ^^ woots! likka high.
God im gonna go sleep now, so i wouldnt be late for practice at nine. Love ya!

love the world.
love you.
love her.
love him.
love everyone.

^^ spread the love yo!.

ps: Am I Still The One is so addictive. though its kinda a sad song. but the classical, 1960s kinda melody with that simple 8 beat drumming. woots. im all over it. i like that piano solo too. and that violin accompany. beautiful piece.

2009-12-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

thats what i call clubbin. [

hahas. se-rious-ly! ytd was awesomeeee! ^^ Julia's delighted face when we sang happy birthday song. when Bobby-the-wife brought the heart shaped cake over. ^^ hee hee! likka happy only.

dinner was nice too at sushitei. crab fried rice and terriyaki cod fish! shared with nigel though. cause we dont feel like eating much. hahas.

so, we stayed till they said they were closing and we started camwhoring outside their shop. LOL!

and of we went to REBEL!
the music was not the best, but the company was!
woots! i think we were like so super self high. hahas.
the guys were naiseeeee, gentlemens to have kept us in a circle. ^^ love them. julia baby, lets go again! suern wants too. hahas. and yesss! lets take the ride! before this year ends! ^^

im gonna go now. ciaos!

*ytd was a happy day. techincally, these early wee hours today! =))

2009-12-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

aites,

baby's bday party is canceled. =((

sometime again aites. love ya!

2009-12-17T16:57:00.003+08:00

im feeling lazy on a thursday afternoon.

its cool and windy. those awesome weather when it's gonna rain anytime soon. those you feel you'll have to snuggle under the blanket and press your head lightly against your pillow and fall into a sweet slumber.

;DD actually, thats what i've been longing to do ALL afternoon. but! im gonna study. have to. pity us having torturing lecturers setting papers on 8 30 am in the morning.
cant do last min revision in the morning AT ALL. =((

lazy. lazy. lazy.

celebrating julia's legal 18th tml! in advance. =)) that sweet awesome girl. my baby.

and, tml's ivan's birthday too. hahas.
must be out with his girl celebrating.

im in such a holiday mood.
i just so feel like lazing around the wholeeeeee day. =((

am drumming for service this sunday.
so looking forward to serving! ^^

this whole post is totally not structured cause im too lazy to. and even lazier to edit. so ya. tatas.

to whom you think are my treasured, do check out your fb yo! ^^

God bless.
i feel as though ill fall asleep anytime soon. =x

ps: we're dining at http://www.prive.com.sg/ tml.
hoping the food will taste good. cause they all look AWESOME.
powerhouse after that i think. LOL. the hole in my pocket's widening! =(( bad thing. LOL

cant wait for tml! dread tml as well. im sucha walking contradiction.

2009-12-17T03:40:00.000+08:00

im having hiccups in the middle of the night.
from nowhere. goodness.

2009-12-17T03:32:00.002+08:00

time check. 3 32 a.m. in the morning.

adeline will officially say im crazy to not have one to bed by now. =x niang zi~ *sounds cheena*

anyways,
im soooo in the holidays mood alrdy. =(( but there's still HRM on friday. the saddest part is, its a freaking 8 30 am paper. meaning. i'll have to leave my hse at 6 am in order NOT to be late.

naise one. i bet the lecturer hates us.

so, i did up some thanks giving thingy for my friends and ba_commers. was thinking i shld do it now since im like online. and i;; definitely have no time for nuts after exams. im all booked. =x awful!

andand!
i've decided! no resolutions for next year! cause i realised, every year, i set. yet nth is realised. might as well save my effort. hahahahahahas. and im starting to go midnight joggin with vernon loh after hrm. =)) naiseeee! can cut weight. ahem fats actually. LOL!

and can burn off this extra hyper active energy!!!
troublesome energy.

my shoulders are aching like (&^%^$%#$#*%^%$%$@##@%
they're killing me. wondering whats wrong. =((

aites. imma go to bed. vernon says my eyebags are coming out.

nights and swt dreams everyone!
God bless.

ps: jess darling agree you're too old too. how how??? actually, everyone agrees. LOL!

2009-12-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

LOL.

everyone's complaining about eba. msn. fb. etc.

nobody seems to grumble for cma. though.

see the magical effect eba has??? awesomeeee!

anyways,

i kinda want to protest.
we aint geeks, why make us one?
why shld we study modules like eba which will only make us a retard.

=(( matherine dislike IT modules.

2009-12-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

eba is crap like hell.
holy! im stuck stuck at chapt 1 after soooooooooooooo long.

naise? no.

=((

im so tireddd. my eyelids are dropping.

=(((

the words on the ppt slides aint helping abit.

=((((

the stupid long pages of IT facts are disturbingly NOT eyecatching.

=(((((

i've been staring at the screen for like 65213651283463541 hours not absorbing anything.

=((((((
=(((((((

so sad.

EBA IS CRAP.
why do business students have to study things related to IT every sem? its SOOOOOOO torturing. i feel like sleeping. =(( really.

what now, what now.

2009-12-14T00:21:00.001+08:00

its always good to have cousins living just 2 blocks away.

=)) cause vernon always welcome me to his hse to study.
and he's always been helpful and ohwell, sweet.

hahahas, thank God he doesnt read this, if not im sure his head will swell like i-dont-know what.

CMA. practise, practise and practise.

=(( but okay larh. better than theories. EBA and HRM. GG! =x

am going home soon.

he's coming out of the bathroom. bbies. lest he say im distracted again. LOL!

ps: thanks ade and chiang for being such great help!!!

2009-12-13T15:05:00.002+08:00

awwww..

this is so awful. it keeps repeating for like, the 4th sem alrdy? cant believe it. im alrdy in my last sem, second year and im still such a procrastinator in studying. OMGOODNESSSSSS!!!

maybe i shld just visit the doctor someday.
declare that i have SHORT ATTENTION SPAN bug stuck onto me.
maybe that'll help in having no tests/exams for me.

hahas, dream on like what adeline says. =((

i cant freaking concentrate.

GOD HELP ME!

2009-12-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

im someone who feeds off ppl's emotions at times too.

and especially when everyone's so down, emo and irritatingly sad.

argh.

thank God there's wx who crapped with me these 2 days. if not i would have died for all those negative energy flow coming towards me in EVERY direction. =((

cant stand all the awful emotions. will upkeep my energy level and joyful feeling!!! the devil cant beat me down!

anyways, out with serene today! it was totally to-ta-lly AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! crapping, bitching, laughing, doing stupid stuffs, shopping, eating. WOOTS! totally let off all that's within =))

and today's a great day. just too shag for the both of us. i shall sleep after this round of poker ends.

nights and swt dreams world.
may tml be a better one! with more joy!!!

GOD BLESSSSS! ^^

2009-12-11T01:22:00.003+08:00

its amusing.

people just keep flooding in to chat today.
but you were sooooooo quiet. busy?
hahas.

and i realised SHAWN can be your good friend.
you both said the exact same thing!

heehee. i shld get to bed right? always so nocturnal. argh.
my bioclock's hijacked!!

gotta wake you up and dearest Mr Pee tml.
but, before that, adeline and chiang has gotta wake me up.

hahahahas. chain reaction cycle. but i like! ^^

btw, WEIXUAN LOOKED LIKE A GIRL WHEN HE WAS A TOODLE.
so cuteeeeeeeeeee! can wear dress! hahahas

nights and swt dreams ladies.
GOD BLESS! ^^

2009-12-11T00:37:00.001+08:00

hmm..

i think he can wait. hahas. the age difference is really bothering me much.
whyyyyyy so old. LOL.

nehmind.

CT more impt. spare me more commitment too. heehee!

NIANG ZI~~~
think ade will keel me!

2009-12-09T22:15:00.004+08:00

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jason's funny. hahahas. forever a worrywart.
and this year, everyone's fighting to be the last. so cute! hee ^^

and im carelessly, so carelessly falling into your trap.. ^^
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2009-12-09T01:56:00.002+08:00

maybe its time i try accepting someone new in my life.
but! SINGLEHOOD is so awesome!
yes? no?

i bet he'll say YESS! hahas.

he's cute. funny. tall. awesome.
but just a lil too OLD! *pouts*

but, age doesnt really matter right?
hahahas. i must be mad. at 2am.

gtg. better finished up my slides for tml's EBA presentation. cant believe im working so hard for 3 marks. -.- sounds kinda ridiculous, but its really 3 marks only! LOL!

2009-12-07T02:58:00.006+08:00

and it BEDTIME LOVLIES! ;DD

http://www.flickr.com/photos/myluvmyla/2218926430/

http://artfiles.art.com/images/-/Ron-Bayens/Bedtime-Prayers-Print-C10059464.jpeg

hopefully i dont oversleep later and be late for tutorial.
so many things, so little time. goodness.
but, i'll press on.

what Pastor said was right.
I have to do my best BEFORE God will do the rest.
cause He doesnt award those who are lazy but rather those who worked hard and serve Him well.

I SHALL PRESS ON FOR MY LORD. and not for anyone else. ^^

Task completed in a mere 5 hours. Praise the Lord.

1. done Database 3.
2. finished up EBA 50 questions quiz
3. Distributed work for ECD presentation.
4. Uploaded pictures for EBA selling.
5. Designed EBA and I&E needed pictures
6. done up the facebook event for I&E.

Task incomplete

1. Photos Descriptions
2. Catalogue
3. Accessories Photoshoot
4. ALL MY TUTORIALS =x
5. Sales report
6. EBA ppt slides

Goodness. i think i better go sleep before more pops up. LOL!

2009-12-06T02:17:00.002+08:00

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horrible night. embarrassing and infuriating.

LORD, make me grow in You. so that i would not be affected by the devil so ever easily. it's never easy to lead a human life, cause we're never perfect like you. but Lord. Shield me from the devil's touch, the touch to bring me further away from you.

Shield my family, friends and make them of your worthy servants. Bless us bountifully with good health, financially, physically and most importantly spiritually.

Father Lord, bless and protect our minds and prevent them from being corrupted with sins. Strengthen our faith by Thy power and bring us through the challenges Thy set.

In Jesus' precious name i pray. Amen.

Lord, im only human, bless me to have the strength to press on and continue serving you in the ministry for the glory of your kingdom. let not any person affects me and make me fall from Your grace. for they are not worthy, only You are.

i pray for Your graciousness to lighten my load and troubles, for only You alone are capable.
in Jesus name, i give thanks. amen
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2009-12-05T02:18:00.003+08:00

life is boring. some laughter to share with ya. enjoy!

always wanted to do smth like the first video. so fun! and of course if i have a chance, smth like the RAFFLES HTC FLASHMOB! SO COOL!!!

few different versions here. =))

2009-12-04T22:29:00.003+08:00

and so, it was BLACK&WHITE YTD!!! ;DD

PROUD OF MY BACOMMers!
they are forever cute, hyper, sweet and indescribably nice!
just being around them brightens up your day, lightens your spirit etc.

and, i must say spending my bithday with them was definietely VERY memorable. ;DD

except the part where eugene played the youtube video with a CAT singing a bday song. -.- likka omgoodness! S.C.A.R.Y!!!!

but one sad thing, the pictures are corrupted and i've alrdy deleted them from the SD card. =(( hopefully xing xian's mtd can work! if not i'll cry.

ps: just pooled with eugene, awesome games. i've improved! wahahahas.

its lights out time. im tired! GOD BLESS people!
LOVE YOU!!!!

psps: to all whom had wished me in a way or other, THANK YOU SO MUCH!! MUACKSS! ♥♥♥
love you guys! i wont name names this year aites. cause i keep losing count. hahahas. till next time, ROCK ON!

2009-12-03T09:59:00.002+08:00

woots!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE~
hahas, like a thick-skinned wishing myself.

it was awesome ytd! really really awesome! had an advance celebration with Ade Chiang Puay Nanas! was so damn high the whole time. i think i was blabbering nonsense 70% of the time as if im drunk. -.- look what has lack of sleep done to me. hee.

so, we had my fav food around sch are. RAMEN!! went to this stall which i like alot. the food was yummy. chatted and kept laughing the whole way.

the crazies gave me pink leopard prints BRA as my bday gift. -.- hahas, and i said just give me cash larh the day before. and they really did. -.- but, didnt wanna accept, so the money went into our stomach for the bill and the comfort of reachin blk 72 by a flag of the arm. heehee

so dan korn larh was naiseeeee ytd. actually, he's almost naiseeee everyday. just weird.

and after lesson ended, me and ade went for oyster omelette down her hse coffeeshop. tasted bad ytd. =(( so sad. next time i go again, uncle you better cook properly. didnt get to eat duck kuay tiao but had an enjoyable reminiscing session with ade.

hahas, those days, that time was the most common terms we used ytd.

and so, i went for bible study after that and the members sang birthday song for Mr Clement Cheong.

then then!
I WENT OUT WITH THE CRAZIES FOR SUPPPER! though it was abrupt and random, the 6 of us got tght and had supper at Bedok 85 market. YUMMY STINGRAY, JUICY SATAY and YUMMILICIOUS JUICY CHILDHOOD BITCHING. hahahas.

manting had a great laugh over me and serene flipping all the old stuffs choon wee did.

and we were high on company. so much so people thought we were drunk.

we shld come out MORE OFTEN! this sat they're meeting for drinking. ;DD

and that was ytd.

TODAY'S BLACK&WHITE!!!!! EGGGGGGGCITED!
woots.

upload photos soon after chiang chiang pass me the cable. till next time, GOD BLESS!

2009-12-01T01:33:00.002+08:00

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hmm..

se-ri-ous-ly.

is December a month to emo? why is everyone around moody, sad, stressed up?

aites, must be the weather to blame. so gloomy. cooling thought. LOL.
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2009-12-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

im now bloggin comfortable in bed. most prolly tugging in after this. ^^

Didnt watch the Twilight's first movie. caught New moon last sunday though. AWESOME movie cause of Jacob. he's like sooooo HOT! hahas.

on the other hand, edward looks sickly and ewww, out of shape. LOL!

we celebrated Puay Suan's LEGAL 18 that day. gave her a surprise durian cake. Hopes she likes it. hee.

Lil Miss Flu Bug is stubborn. she has been stuck on me for a month! even after medication, im not recovering. -.- can she go find someone else? i dont want her to be my best friend. i want Lil Miss Brainy instead. =x cause CT's round the corner, and the dumb me realised CT doesnt have study break. GOODNESS!

i shld go to bed soon. tml still have ECD presentation. speaking of which. -.- i did up the slides and animations till 4 am ytd only to hear from Adeline

"Presentation not graded. You dont know meh?"

almost fainted after hearing those words. LOL. my beauty sleep!

Mr Heng Jun Jie texted me this morn. he changed a phone and was schrolling down his contacts list. found me. LOL. some background info. he was this Chem relief tutor during my JC 1. a nice guy. taught me Chem for prelims! and he's really got that passion for Chem cause he's in his final years in UNI and am finding a chem related job. rofl.

if its me, i would have destroyed earth with my Chem basics. he's sucha pro. Hard to find someone so passionate in life of smth. Most people would just say they wouldnt know what they want or be in life.

ohh.. and Andy's kinda weird tonight. LOL. are all old uncles like that? hmm..

browsed through my hard disk and realised woah, its a year since last year. well, what a dumb way to phrase. but you get me. im just trying to say, time flies. its just so fast!

im tired. *yawns* nights and swt dreams people. pardon this disorganized post. i'm lazy to link all of them tght.

may tml be a better day for all. God bless.

2009-11-27T01:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEEEEPOS!

im back in Singaporeeeee~!

geez. ths 3 days was a total shag for me. babysitting the children, taking care of their leisure wants and stomach needs. LOL. what a way to phrase it.

anyways, whatsnot. it was still awesome. babysitting isnt a torture. just that too much can kill. it exhausts off my energy. hahas.

1st day.

reach Genting at 1pm on the first day. and so, we had lunch and thereafter, it was me, wei wei and the kids at the arcade. stupid basketball machine was faulty and ate up our tickets =x

and after dinner, it was time for the kids to go for bowling. Hei Hei[cousin], Man Ting [my cousin's girlf], wei and I went to Safari disco. It was an awesome night. woots! the Chivas was sweet and the atmosphere was damn high in the night. the dance floor was burning. =))

and so, after the guys couldnt take it any longer, all of us went back to our rooms leaving a lil unfinished Chivas back at the club.

2nd day.

had lunch together with the adults and off we went to purchase tickets for In&Outdoor tickets. ;DD Manting managed to pull off as a 12 year old and hence we could buy 2 family package 4 adults 4 children. rofl. that person was kinda dumb to be cheated.

hei hei, manting and wei was with the kids cycling the boat and unlucky enough, it started RAINING! LOL. the kids were a lil drenched. so, back to the hotel to bathe.

had session 2 without the couple. woots! pirate ship was high high high. not the trip though, the the people on it was so so funny! the kids were horrified the first time. the second time they were loosening up. but, they went crazy at the last.

hahas. cute babies.

after dinner, we sent them back to the hotel. this time round, we couldnt get back into safari cause there were POLIS[police]. wei was checked first. and yes, they are all underage. -.- and the police was damn irritating. *lazy to explain. ask me if ya wanna know ;D

went to this life band place and this time round it was Manting who couldnt get in. so the grumpy 4 went all the way to first world and settled down at a bar. nice ambience. saw a bunch of cheena hairstylist. group of 12 i guess. scary peepo. the moment they see neat straight hair, they'll attack with the pom pom powder [the one which can volume up your hair] and messed it all up.

-.- guess its just their style.

and the lead singer of the band was.. HA HA HA! funny ttm. mt and i think he's those that went for surgery but cause too poor, couldnt afford a full package, hence the lack of the placement of BOOBS! likka seriously! he was going around dancing and flirting with guys. hugging them whenever he could. *finds it amusing*

but, one thing for sure. he sings awesome! ;DD and that place has the best waitress in Genting. rofl. you shld have seen most of them in safari. the moment they see you calling for them, they'll turn and walk another way. DAMN FAST!

3rd day was today.

nth much. just some packing up. changing of points into gifts. my aunt bought me a pair of Carlo Rino heels. love them!

i always link Carlo Rino with aunties. labelled it as an aunty brand. but, i guess its just the Carlo Rino products in Singapore is really limited. those in Genting was kinda nice, esp their heels. ;DD

HOT HEELS! =))

and bought loadsa food back and of course adeline's Beh Teh Sau. rofl.

didnt spend a single cent of my own money. actually cause i didnt bring any. =x spent all the adult's money. hahas. SHOIK!

2009-11-16T01:35:00.002+08:00

i miss those carefree days.

issit that as one grows older, she has got lil time for herself?

issit that as one grows older, she will lose more close friends she treasures.

my words speak of nothing. my heart is blank.
i wish i can be drenched again. under that dark blue sky with water splatting non-stop. i miss her and her. we've been close in secondary days. i think of my negligence i've lost them all. i think i ___________.

then there's angelin, we never got a chance to meet. im busy, she is too. whenever we wanna meet, there's last min things cropping up for both she and me. haish.

and there's them..

and just as i remembered, junshen and chris broke up. and he asked if lilin and clara forgives him. LOL! he said certain things. will convey to them when i have the chance.

tung has completed his studies in US and now continuing in Vietnam. his maiden country.

etc etc.. but who's really close in life for long? if its just for that period, can i not have them?

laughs at myself. looking thru this post, its kinda childish. grow up matherine. life goes on. nothing lasts forever. get it?

2009-11-16T01:23:00.001+08:00

life's been in a hectic swirl of work and being sick.

i've been sick for THREE whole weeks! likka se-rios-ly! thank God i'm recovering. am feeling much better these few days.

friday was really really awesome!
was out with ade, chiang, nanas, puay suan.
crazy buffet stuffing at cineleisure. im serious. it was crazy stuffing. LOL! i even came up with the idea of a game to have the loser clear up the left overs. but, who knows, we got so addicted, we just kept taking more food from the revolver and ordering more from the waitress too.

and inthend, we were almost all dead from that BULGING tummy. hahas.

but, FUN!

watched 2012 thereafter, se-rious-ly, this is one of those few end-of-world shows that's filmed and plotted so awesome! the whole storyline is delicate! there were thrilling scenes, emotional scenes, family scenes, reality facts etc.. a well mix of all aspects in life.

touching and inspiring. cried as usual. =x adeline and chiang too. hahahas.

but at some scenes, me and chiang LAUGHED really loud. it was really really funny!

i recommend you guys to watch it. ;DD worth sitting in for 3 hours. se-rious-ly!!!

havent enjoy myself for quite a longgg longgg time. it was pure enjoyment and relief for me. ;DD

ps: photoshoot's really very tiring! be it being filmed or filming others. had an experience of both. argh! tired!

2009-11-09T00:31:00.002+08:00

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i'll feel so much better talking to the walls than talking to you.

at least it still echoes after me.

nice of you to do this when im telling you of my problems. you asked and yet you ignore. never shall say this to you anymore. NEVER.
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2009-11-06T14:13:00.002+08:00

argh! im feeling awfully queasy. Like awfully awful. those that you might puke all over just in a moment, but then again its stuck there. neither here nor there feeling. rather i puke them all out.

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

2009-11-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

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WOOOOOOTS~!

BANG IS OVERRRRRR~

all is well, all is well.

Food was totally wiped out. hahas. yummy! love the Bee Hoon Goreng. Actually, the Fried Guo Tiao is nice too. heehee. just didnt get to eat the nuggets and seaweed chicken cause its gne the moment its being let out. hahas.

popular.

ATIQAH IS THE WINNER OF THE NIGHT! nice one girl! ;DD JESSICA AND MICHELLE TOO! THEY ARE 1ST RUNNER UP BY ONLY A MARKS DIFFERENCE.

FIERCE COMPETITION!

Lim Meng Kheng came for only the upper half of the event. =((

still kinda cant believe it has passed. hahas. but likka happy only. =))

the sense of accomplishment! wahhh~ indescribable. alright, im really really tired. slept only at 6 am in the morning ytd. i think i gtg soon!

nights and swt dreams everyone.

thank You Lord for being here in our presence. and push me thru every obstacles. =)) THANK YOU! amen.

2009-11-04T13:26:00.003+08:00

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Everyone has got two sides in them.
It's just how often the other appears before you.

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2009-11-04T00:37:00.004+08:00

another sleepless night.

well, not really enjoying it. but, ohwell. i guess i just have to bare with it a lil. ^^

kinda feeling a lil more excited than ytd caus BANG! is TODAY! LOL! Technically yes, but Literally, for those who has yet closed their eyes for bed its still 03 NOV.

and for your laugh. =))

seriously, funny guys.
all the weird funny craps can really crack me up. was laughing like a silly. but enjoyed it. really love them loads. heehee ^^

and, me am in the crappy mood every moment with ade and chiang. not that awful kinda crappy. but the weird fantastic kinda crappy. hahas. its like, im living in a worries-free world. in a extremely colourful world when im in sch!

but kinda different when i step out of it. urgh. mentioning it dulls my day. ohwell, thats life.

had unexpected problems. but thank God for His mercy, i'm saved. everthing's solved. AMEN! ;DD

now, i got to crack down to work. ciaos!

2009-11-03T01:26:00.006+08:00

sch today was awesome. with like a horrible 3 hours breaks in between HRM and CMA. fyi, cma was pushed back due to our tutor having to take some external tests to upgrade herself. ohwell, a well enough to pull off reason. within my acceptable range.

but at least my day started off well and nice. with ade waking me up at the exact Perfect timing! ;DD was early for bus. and coincidentally we were both on the same NON air-conditioned bus unknowingly until we reached KAP. so, she had been stalking behind me all these while. LOL.

and beign early would meant excess time for a much needed breakfast! wanted black pepper chicken, but miserable teriyaki chicken instead. argh! can only blame myself for ordering the wrong thing. funny how i thought it will turn out to be BPC and i even stare at the aunty thinking it wasnt my order. -.- nice.

but nevertheless, BREAKFAST!

okay, so HRM was boring and kinda time-wasting but i get to see me and ade's YAN JING TANG GUO the moment i opened the room's door! did i mention his class is just opposite ours on every monday!!! ;DD happy ttm!

it was so coincidental! like se-rious-ly! both of us walked out of class the exact same timing. is that what you call fate, o Lord? hahahas.

and i had a OVER sugar rush for damn long. irritated ade so much she wanted to kill me. yuling didnt get to see him though. she always end late. LOL. i was boasting to her about it! wahahahahas, friends. ohwell, chiang was too late, when she's out he alrdy turned and all she could admire was, his back. LOL!

anyways, back to break. spend some time in doing my CMA tutorial. a-huh. a good change. previously, its either i couldnt care less or i cant be bothered. if not, i wanted to but will never do. rofl.

a good start. shall keep it up.
and now, i really needa go to bed.
ciaos, nights and swt dreams
God bless.

ps: since i've alwasy been mentioning about BANG! show ya'll a poster i've designed.

2009-11-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

Tech run that day was considered smooth. cause we HAD a tech run. hahas. some of them will understand what i mean.

today's run through was considered cool too! though the emcees still needa brush up, but i think they are awesome enough! ;DD

BA_COMMunications! meeeeeee loveeeeee theeeeeeeem!
so many eeeeeeeeeees. hahahahahas.

BANG!'s coming in 2 days time! likka wow?
kinda fast. still havent felt that adrenaline rush and overexcitement yet. maybe soon. afterall, its the first and most major event BA_COMM is handling this year. meaning our 09/10 EXCO's first EVENT!

kinda cool arh~ first event alrdy this BIG.
heehee, tickets are almost out for grabs. looking forward to the event. then next up would be BLACK & WHITE. and the most PRESTIGIOUS STAGEWERKZ!

havent done tml's tutorial yet =x do or sleep?
i did tutorial last week, but i couldnt wake up. inthend, skipped tutorial. no point right, do tutorial yet skip the actual lesson. i shld attend without doing also sounds wrong. argh.

side info: thru God's transformation, I've been attentively listening in class and obediently finishing every tutorial but just a lil reluctantly attending my lectures. rofl. anyways, good changes are always, good.

=)) to a better tml, matherine shall go to bed now and hit the pillows.
God bless everyone. amen

2009-10-31T22:35:00.002+08:00

busy. busy. busy.

BANG! is fast forwarded to this coming wednesday. =))
which explains most of my cares and troubles.

most others are caused by a family member of mine. she's irritatin, insincere, not genuine ttm. haish. but may Lord grant me the heart of forgiveness to totally forgive her.

here, i wanna share smth about our Lord.
last wed i wanted to make go make renewal for my passport, but i heard that there was tech run on that day itself. was still bothering if i shld be there to help or not. i think God placed me there eventually to make it run smoothly, cause the school's sound system in charge was kinda making things difficult for eugene. but, Thank God, he was alright when i approached him and asked. if not we would have died on next week!

btw,
my PAY IS STILL NOT HERE YET!!! CRIES! so sad.

am serving the Lord tml. gtg rest early. nights and swt dreams everyone. God bless. amen.

ps: aunty cindy just had an operation, pray hard that she'll recover from her fever in Jesus name. may our Healer, Merciful Father heal her completely. amen.

i've got smth to blog about.. kinda slipped off my mind. =(( am old.

edit: i remembered!!! =(( BLACK & WHITE'S ON MY BIRTHDAY! sobbs. there goes DEC 3rd!

2009-10-17T15:57:00.005+08:00

em eveig ot uoy wolla i truh tsal eht si siht toidi lufwa na era ouy

internship has come to an end. like finally!!!

so much had happened through these 7 weeks.
tears. curses. berates. scoldings. idiot. boredom. fun. you name it, we have it.

all the major experiences one would experience in their working life, i think we had it all. and! my pay has yet reach me from the previous company. sounds sad right. *pouts*

the last day in the 2nd company was the best since we finally know how the people in there works like. and i said the best cause at 4 plus 5o'clock kailing came in and asked me to do training with edward [yi xuan] for the new batch of interns. hahahas shiok!

then half way through at 5 45pm she says we can wrap up and leave at 6pm! woots! damn high!

ooh! forgot to say, edward's like this eye candy that adeline and i think is cute! omg!!!! and ytd we gave the interns smth to do and escaped off for a break. hahas, tell ya he's a super slacker. we sat on the chair and starting chatting. omg omg! hahahas.

its been long since there's any cute guys around. hahahas. i know i sound kinda idiotic but who cares. and he's 19 not 18! thats the most impt point. rofl!

oh, btw! Justin's daddy is nice. he gave both me and justin a ride to work the whole of this week!!! which gave me more time for sleeping!!!

anyways, we met vic and ana at lavender before heading down to joo chiat for an awesome dinner. a celebration of YU LING's 21st birthday!!! the food there is cool. they have chilli crab pasta and the brown sauce one which i have never tried before.

though the brown sauce one tastes like the hokkien mee we have for tzi char. hahahas. its still kinda special.

but the chilli crab one is really really awesome ttm!

their appetizer, soup, garlic bread, white wine, dessert.. everything is awesome. [only the red wine isnt that nice =x] am so gonna bring my family and 2 crazies there! ;DD jiaying, food i'll never forget you. hahahas.

kkies, think thats enough for now. needa do work alrdy. ;DD

God, i heard what You've asked the Holy Spirit to tell me. and i know this is a gift You've given to me, i'll make full use if it. amen.

and thank You. i always yearn to know the answer fast. i always kept asking. but You told me bit by bit in appropriate portions that i could handle. and thank You. Lord, thank You for telling me all that has been bothering me. and thank You for ending this thing for me, untying this last knot in such a manner that i feel i've grown so much stronger in handling this.

Thank You. Father, i love You.

2009-10-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

tell ya a secret.

i dislike smokers.

but.

i hate drunkards!

2009-10-12T00:26:00.002+08:00

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im so sick. so sick of the new company.

though ive been telling myself it aint THAT bad.

anyways, it aint the only thing im sick of..

im sick of YOU too. really sick. so sick. too sick.

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and i miss see jarrick. quickly come back! i wanna eat egg mayo subway sandwich. you're the only one who'll share with me. and i miss the times when we played with food. ahhhhh, overall, i want a getaway!

everything's getting on my nerves.

just smth great for tml. justin's daddy will be giving us a ride again! =)) happy!
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2009-10-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

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ICOMMUNICATIONS & MARKETING!

that's the new company that im posted to. a lil update. my previous company which i was sent for attachment had sadly to say, folded.

many would think im kidding. but IT'S TRUE. -.-

and while others think wow! your company folded. how great, you have more holidays! well, supposedly so till someone from our batch called up our sch's liaison officer and told the truth.

LOL!

there goes my PAID holidays. hahahas.

but, well. thanks to that person we're now continuing working. and we're dispatched to sell DINERS credit card. -.- TELEMARKETING from 10-7pm. what the.....

of all cards DINERS! -.- LOL!
but nevertheless, God's Good. and i had my blessings. ;DD

first day of work. half day trainin. half day work. and of course fun with all the rest. heehee. and some sales.

oh! and my shop's launched too! www.kjamwardrobe.blogspot.com
do support yo! if you're a guy, buy for your ladies.

if you're a girl, hahahahas, i dont need to say more!!!! shoppingggg time!

alrighty, i think i needa go to bed now. if not justin would kill me if im late meeting him tml.

GOD BLESS!!! AMEN! ;DD

for You, i'll do my best and live my life fully! cause You provide. =)) lovessss!
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2009-10-01T23:36:00.001+08:00

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i have to agree with mel. some things lost are irrecoverable.

but nevertheless, life still goes on. ;DD
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2009-10-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

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row row row your boat
gently down the stream
merrily merrily merrily
gently down the stream

=)) how many times in life do we have the current flowing in our direction?

there's still so much more to learn in life. ohmygoodness.

growing up. learning process. for everyone.

im starting work once again people. wish me luck to be posted to a nice company. God Bless.
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2009-10-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

The Mysterious thing called "LOVE"....

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go.
There is a reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love.
Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

There is where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need.
They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.

They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it to your heart.
Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.

You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

"If you want to be happy, be."

2009-09-29T16:07:00.002+08:00

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True Lovers exist
just to piece up the other half's world even if it means theirs would fall apart.
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2009-09-29T05:48:00.005+08:00

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this is for someone special.
keith ng

God wants me to tell you this. when all else fails, He'll still be there by your side. When things turn bad, its Him who wants to make you grow through the challenges.

If everyone was born with everything, would he cherish what he has. God wants you to earn it and learn cause He loves you.

whenever in doubt, cast your worries on Him, for if He is for you who can be against you?

humans have only such limited strength. we are merely humans. sometimes, as much as we want to change smth, its not up to our control. so, just trust in God, pray, look up to Him and He'll do the rest.

if your faith is forever wavering, your life will be hanging in mid-air too. born in a Christian family, i would say you're blessed. cause you got to know the Lord way before i do. but, its always never too late to return to Him once again. for a merciful Father like Him will never reject you but only welcome you into His warm embrace.

DO NOT only trust the Lord during times when He provides for you, and when his tests come, you run away. do you think it's right? no, our Father gets hurt too.

Count the days, the months, the years you've backslided. but yet when there comes the time you really needed Him, didnt He provide for you and answered your prayers?

and now you're like a fish stuck in a pool of muddy water, God wants you to swim in clear oceans. To allow you to see clear directions in life. to have more freedom. to be comfortable with what's given to you.

certain times when you're faced with so many downfalls, you'll start blaming God. your eyes will be blindfolded by the devil. but, when you finally came out of the situation, you may find yourself a better person through the stituation or even feeling blessed that as this situation had occured, something worse was prevented.

God wants me to tell you that you often allows the devils to speak into your ears. and that at every point of your life, you just allow yourself to be lost. it's not that you cant, its that you wont.

there's a calling within you. but you've always shelved it away. its etched there, your heart, your soul but you ignored the calling. you knew its existence, but you dont believe it is real.

Now you know who you are. you are God's precious child. and He loves you.

I've fufilled God's task for me. to knock some sense into you. as to how to find the right directions in life, you'll have to first wake up and look up to the Lord and ask Him yourself. im just an empty vessel thats He's using to help you.

you used to agree with things taught in church, and everytime you were so motivated to strive hard in life or to even become a better person due the phrases/sermons.

why not give yourself another chance in life, come back to church. listen to God's words. i believe, it will be dedicated for you and it will touch your life once again.

for with God, all things are possible.

now, its up to you to decide. God brought you to my blog. He brought me into His family through you. Now, He wants me to save you back from the journey to hell and desperation.

let Him help you. cause, you are just a mere human too. and we both know, you just want to be a simple man, living a comfortable and well supported life. having a simplicity lifestyle.

so much as you deny. so much you said you've changed.

are you? you dont need to tell me. God told me everything. It's just whether are you answerable to your ownself and to God.

Hallelujah. may the Great Lord bless you.
and may the Holy Spirit touch you.
lastly, may Jesus heals your tattered being.
amen.
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2009-09-29T04:58:00.000+08:00

Are you LIVING or simply EXISTING?

ever ponder about this before?

I've seen/heard this many many a times. over TVmobile, online, sermons etc. so, people, have you ever wonder where are you standing now in life? are you simply existing, behaving like a robot doing the same mundane stuffs over and over again by the years?

or are you living, spending every moment in joy doing things that you like/love. or even sweating doing hardwork just to achieve/accomplish something.

when you're only existing, you cry over and over and over again over things that never will belong to you, cause you just cry.

but rather when you cry and yet learnt at the same to how to gain that particular thing, you are living. cause you are making full use of your life.

you are not just sitting there rotting taking up space, oxygen, nutrients and resources, but instead, you standing there planning, increasing more space for earth and resources too and you create more formulaes and extraction of nutrients too.

always trying hard to earn alot of money, are you living? if you work, you earn, yet you dont spend. what for you earn? of course im not saying that you should reckessly spend away every cents. but money earn will never be enough for anyone on earth, cause of greed.

and because of that people often fell into the trap and work for money instead. they eventually became slaves of cold hard cash. isnt all this meaningless?

so, get a life and starting living.

God created all of us for a reason. to live and accompany Him. to be happy and to love Him.

hahas, i dont know what's with me to have typed so much. =x and its like 5 12am. got to run.

God bless everyone.

*ps: clement has got smth to tell me. ohmygoodness! hopefully its not smth bad. but i have a bad feeling about it cause he only wants to tell me face to face. and can you imagine, it's on sunday where we'll be meeting for service in church. and today's like what, just tuesday? argh. dont like suspense. ohmy!!!!

psps: andrina? hahas. jiayou

2009-09-29T04:31:00.000+08:00

我的朋友，勇敢地去爱吧！

dont needa worry about anything. =))
im all behind you!!!

and its time you stand up and fight for your next relationship isnt it? since our last had alrdy ended for like, so long? [hmm.. come to think of it, its like eons can!]

GOGO! [reminds me of power ranger's theme song, LOL!]

you're so timid thats why girls never know what you think. so worry not! ;DD just be brave for all you can!

good luck in your pursue. heehee.
God bless!

2009-09-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

He sings nice worship songs.

2009-09-25T16:01:00.000+08:00

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photo shoot's really tiring.

goodness! but all worthwhile. =)) shop's gonna launch soon. am very very happy! the next photo shoot for this batch of clothing is on sunday. ;DD found a great model.

drumming again this week for sunday service.

Father bless me.
amen.

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2009-09-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

some times things are just so irritating.

some people, dont care, dont work.

and its the people who care who's always the one being blamed.

its not the first time. and its of different people too.

humans, care only for themselves? big-headed creatures.

2009-09-17T03:03:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER'S BACK TO NORMAL!
thats smth worth celebrating. hahas.

won a GV ticket to watch Final Destination, but no oneeeeee to watch with me. =(( JunJun wanted to, but how could he. he's only nine. LOL!

anyone?

saturday. headache. choices. idiot. hahas.

and THANK GOD tml's my OFF DAY! woots!
and macdonald HOTCAKES for breakfast! heehee.

i can vision my studio apartment. ohmy! egggggcited!

work has been fine. tiring though. but one thing is i feel as though my legs' gonna break soon. LOL. (long hours of standing...) =x

xiao dong said we're turning into robots soon. but i differ, parrot sounds more like it. kept repeating the same thing over and over again.

tell ya, you can just record our voice and action. and the number of rejection's overwhelming can. hahas. but am still happy that i got this job as my internship. my leader's awesome. and this job pays well too!

alright, tml's gonna be a long day. so im gonna say bye to all.

wish me luck. ive been so tired from overloaded tasks. but i will do my best. cause i have my vision. hahahahahas! happy likka cow~

moooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

thank you Lord for everything. my good sales and everythng.
in Jesus name, AMEN! HALLELUHJAH!

2009-09-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

a post before i go to bed.

tuesday started off awesome. there's this lil boy on board that kept spinning in rounds round the handlebar. he's kinda cute so i was wow-ing at him whenever he made a turn.

i think, back then i was the only one on board that bothered about him. LOL.

then later on he started clicking his tongue and i mimick-ed his actions [of course muted actions] and he experimented that with other people but were only faced with cold shoulders.

he realised i was the only one who'll play with him and he continued. he had such radiant smiles can.

and when he reached his stop, he actually waved goodbye to me and gave me flying kisses!

OMG! so cute!!! the 2 people beside me were laughing too. cause he was soooooo cute when he fly-kissed me. hahas!

a great start of the day. ;DD
and that day i think i had great sales too.

THANK YOU LORD! AMEN!

was so shag this few days as im juggling with a whole load of things. am tired. argh. anyways, today was a good day too. =)) love my Leader, Johnny. a great and caring leader. awesome!

Happy that I've been dispatched to his group.
Xiao Dong and Cheryl agrees too.

anyhows, im tired. first full shift tml. many to go next week. OMG!!!!!

GOD BLESS ME BOUTIFULLY PLEASE! amen! ;DD

2009-09-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today's an awesome day!

played pool with yu ling and adeline durign lunch break. justin, cheryl joined us but were sitting aside. andrew and khai kit had one table themselves.

woots! pool! happy happy happy! its been ages! i stopped way before exams can! and woots! finally i can touch the cue stick, aim and hit the solids and strips.

wheee~

Love this week. uber awesome!

tell you smth happy,

ytd i started work at 9am. Had my break from 12 to 1 30pm.

today i started work at 9 30am. Had my break from 12 30 to 2 30pm.

tml i start work at 10 am!!!!

wahahahahas. this week is sooooooo awesome!

and smth even better, i end work at 3 30pm ytd and today!!! ;DD

ps: my parcel is here! wahahahahahas! today's a UBER happy day!

2009-09-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

HOG FOR YOU ALL WANT FOR THE POST!

you idiots freeloaders. hope when you get your CCA points there will be a WHOLE LOT of problems.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!

just kidding.
not that evil. but, still cant stand them. argh.

Lord forgive me. its just a thought. dont make it come true though.

2009-09-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

saw this on ivan's blog. dtgss really has all the funneh things on his blog.

LOL!

The Procrastinator's Creed

1. I believe that if anything is worth doing, it would have been done already.

2. I shall never move quickly, except to avoid more work or find excuses.

3. I will never rush into a job without a lifetime of consideration.

4. I shall meet all of my deadlines directly in proportion to the amount of bodily injury I could expect to receive from missing them.

5. I firmly believe that tomorrow holds the possibility for new technologies, astounding discoveries, and a reprieve from my obligations.

6. I truly believe that all deadlines are unreasonable regardless of the amount of time given.

7. I shall never forget that the probability of a miracle, though infinitesmally small, is not exactly zero.

8. If at first I don't succeed, there is always next year.

9. I shall always decide not to decide, unless of course I decide to change my mind.

10. I shall always begin, start, initiate, take the first step, and/or write the first word, when I get around to it.

11. I obey the law of inverse excuses which demands that the greater the task to be done, the more insignificant the work that must be done prior to beginning the greater task.

12. I know that the work cycle is not plan-start-finish, but is wait-plan-plan.

13. I will never put off until tomorrow, what I can forget about forever.

14. I will become a member of the ancient Order of Two-Headed Turtles (the Procrastinator's Society) if they ever get it organized.

2009-09-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

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a-huh!

i knew it!

the devil's at work again!

im so gonna read the bible and be HAPPY hearing God's messages.

you do not beat me down.

yes, im imperfect. no one in the world is perfect too.

so, why should i bother so much. they should reflect on themselves first.

and similarly, ill reflect on myself.

for God, ill be a better person.

2009-08-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

bytheway,
my brother decided on the day of his retake on chinese o level oral to give up his Secondary school eduation. and even decided not to come home forever.

well, at least he havent been home since... i dont know when.

can guys ever grow up to be more mature in their thinking and also grow out of the egoistic nature?

ive seen way too many examples of such people.

i'm not saying without an O level certificate my brother will be doomed for life. BUT AT LEAST THINK OF WHAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO DO IN FUTURE. even if you dont know, you could have just asked for a break in life. rather than wasting in away like nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

wastrel friends like them who teaches you to skip such an important exams and proved to you that they are good and loyal friends by skipping school to accompany you is BULLSHIT!

anyhows, you'll grow up when its time.
right now, lets just see how long can your friends outside support you.

^^ if you think you're smart enough, think twice. i said twice, cause you never seem to use your brain. i repeat and highlight the word, NEVER.

argh! hate this blog post. idiot friend who ignited my anger and reminded me of my irritating brother.

ps: its definitely not chuan jun.

2009-08-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

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when you have so much angst in you. when you feel that the whole world has betrayed you. when you have such a small capactiy. when jealousy filled you.

tell me, how can you see the good out of the world?

stop blaming other forever and ever on.

get a life.

nobody owes you or is indebted to you in life.

i pray o that God will release your suffering, cause i as a friend, as a human being, ive tried my best.

and now, not to get myself irritated even further, the solution is to not cool off. till you're BETTER OFF!
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2009-08-31T23:31:00.000+08:00

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i wish for world peace!

alrights, i know its random.
i did loads of them today. omg!

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2009-08-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

to think i thought Blogger's back to normal.

urgh! =x

anyhows,
internship for the first day's considered alright. was released early at 2 30 pm cause Andrew had an appointment with the Orthodontics. well, Desmond[trainer] didnt want him to miss what we will all be going through. thats why.

and i got to know i can reach kovan in just 20mins. to think i kept worrying of being late. LOL! and i was still 20 mins earlier.

and tml starts at 9 30. wahahahahahas, most prolly ending early too! am so happy!

but its for this week only, for its training.

haish, though i have additional pay[commission] but i would needa go down for roadshows. and like today, attend workshops and memorise ALL the needed information and be really careful of my sales speech.

-.- guess, you guys should have known by now my job for internship is...

A CREDIT CARD SELLER! Some bank in Singapore. =)) approach me if you have any relatives who wanna own a credit card alright?

hahas!

alright, i think bedtime should be soon. =)) nights and swt dreams everyone!

GOD BLESS! AMEN!

2009-08-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

today was really an awesome girls day out. its been long since i last enjoyed myself sooooooo much. was so comfortable with yoyo and chiang around.

post exams shopping really do help!! ;DD

especially cause its with them!

and cyling tml at east coast park! like ohmy! wonderful! =)))) love them to bits.

alrighty, my lappy's running outta batt. bbies.

ps: bought some loots back. mum's soooooo gonna kill me if she finds out. LOL!

2009-08-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

saw it on my way home just now..

aMINUTE of Anger means 60SECONDS of your Happiness gone!

=)) and i love it!

2009-08-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

yee khang was lovely to accompany me to study overnight straight upon request at amk macs. so sweet! hahas. cute boy.

was glad to hear that tyty's feeling better.

Chiang Jiaying and Yolanda Wee were awesome distractions for studying? hahas. no larh. had great fun during dinner time!!! ;DD

am looking forward to

baking session! shopping session! running session!

and definitely my internship's pay! wahahahahahas~!

after the horrible papers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;DD

2009-08-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

This morning's study was supposed to be productive. before that idiot started opening his mouth and kept distracting every other person. and he's such a stupid. like wth? what do you treat women as?

"I'll just tell the girls at the start if we're dating that the relationship wont last so let's just enjoy the process."

"To me having a girlfriend now is just to GAIN EXPERIENCE[note this 2 words ive caps!]"

it's like so irritating. if at the start you can date someone and THINKS definite for sure that you'll have a breakup, why start dating. You aint even truthful.

and throughout the whole night you kept dreaming of what you're gonna own, how rich you wanna be, and so on.. like please, if you cant even start studying now and pass your FIRST sem in poly. what more do you want?

oh no, i shld say, what more can you get. -.-

me, tyty, jason, rubin, yee khang and brandon wanted to study. and we did. i completed my pmkt. but we wanted to achieve more that that lil bit we had ytd. YOU DESTROYER! argh. so irritating!!! you didnt even make an effort to start on anything except all the craps. you brought a lappy and the whole time it was facebook.

oh, and i should stop swearing. cause i finally know why Christian shouldnt swear. i read it in the bible by chance. [side track abit]

back to topic, anyway. its the last time me and you will ever be studying tght. and your friend too. -.- you guys are great to chat with. BUT IM SURE THAT COULD WAIT TILL AFTER EXAMS RIGHT???!!!

USE YOUR BRAINS! omg.
suern, hahahahahas. you said time will prove everything. LOL. now i know. =x even tyty starts having thought of dislike. rubin was digusted by his words. LOL!

2009-08-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER IS SOOOOOOOOOO, stupid. i thought it had recovered. -.- dumb!

i shall write my post in numbered forms since since my thinking's all over the place. should be better in some way or another bah. LOL =))

1)Response for today's game was quite well received. =)) felt accomplished. praise the Lord.

the hyped up expression and actions was plain too funny! seeing them camping anxiously near the cards all in ready position to snatch. it's so rare to see Heartbeat Youths' so enthusiastic. hahas. enjoyed today. they almost didnt wanted to end the game.

there will surely be a next time for today's game.

2)Though there are still missing attendees, today's attendance was considered awesomeeee! ;DD

3)am intending to restock and sell clothes again. sooooooo eggcited over it!!!

4)I've eyed that grey shining Rider Jacket and that awesome Funcky Zipper Pockets Suspecta!!! woots!

5)that unsettled feeling i've got was due to them. i know its dumb. but ohwell, God spoke to me and said a few things :
a)forgive your enemy
b)love your enemy
c)pray for your enemy

6)funny how some people neh seem to be able to let go. weird. and funny how some people just have so much hate in their life. haish, God bless those people.

7)i know i should be studying instead of wasting time here. hahahahahahahahahas. thats all folks.

with loads of love i end my post!!!!
MATHERINE STILL LOVES THE WORLD. she knows it aint ugly at all, not one bit!!!!!! hai!

2009-08-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

i realised a long time ago [just that i've always forgotten to pen it down]

that

as humans grow older each day, the more seems to be more complex each day. humans interaction seems to be superficial. and there are even times people are truthful to you and not to mention backstab you.

i've grown to be more negative each day. [which isnt quite a good sign]

anyways, on a lighter note.

SHOPPING MAKES ME EGGGGGGGCITED! ;DDD LOL!

2009-08-14T17:27:00.001+08:00

loads of thrash had been swirling in my head.

i tried not to think but somehow, i cant stop to think.

-.- its difficult, like c'mon, you know smth? the more you do not want to think about it the more the things floats around. i know its dumb, but IT'S THE TRUTH!

awful. awful. awful.

its like i wasted the whole day NOT doing anything cause i cant seem to settle down for anything. urgh. it sucks.

smth seems to be happening. its just this uneasy feeling thats been with me for the past few days. hooooooooooooooooooooorible feeling.

anyways,
Thank God for jiaying, suern, taolian and jessica to motivate me to study. if not, SURE GG!

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2009-08-13T19:58:00.001+08:00

sometimes certain people are just weird. plain weird.

you dont understand a single thing that the person is thinking.
fish with a net or fish with a rod. you decide my friend. =))
and sometimes you just get confused over the things he/she does.
a rod enables you to find nice lovely ones but it takes time and patience.
well, at least i am now. like, -.-
net cuts down all those trouble but you may get rotten ones, unhealthy ones.
anyways, pmkt's horrible. information overload for the day, kinda like system hibernation period alrdy. LOL! maybe till later tonight or tomorrow. =x eeks!

if you neh ever step up to fight for what you want, you'll regret when you lose it. =))

so matherine, 读书加油！

2009-08-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

today's service was awesomeeeee! ;DD

abby did a great job in drumming! Praise the Lord. Amen.

and awesomeeeee Clement is nice and sweet to allow us to come back for drum practice every saturday. cause last sat was our last lesson with teacher Aden. =(( but no worries, he promised to be back when we perfect what he had taught us.

=)) the food from Manna Pot catering was really really nice! i loveeeee the cream seafood! yumyum! Thank God for the wonderful spread today!

JiaYing was here in Church, may Lord bless her and touch her heart and have her coming every week. =)) Hallelujah.

went to meet lovelies LianLian, Lan, JK, Kit and TyTy. =)) went drinking. sorry guys, i think they checked IC again cause i looked underage. =x and inthend, it ended up only with me and Lian drinking. -.- while Lan had apple juice, JK had ginger beer.

ginger tasted good. but 8 1/2 bucks for a soft drinks. never for matherine. LOL!

and home i am now, cause JK pulled out last min about tonning at TyTy's. well i'm still glad, cause ill be having my much needed sleep.

bye people. love you all!!!!! muacks!

ps: knjx, i dont have a boyf, believe it or not. =)) looks like your information source is damn unreliable. LOL!

2009-08-06T01:36:00.000+08:00

[im damn lazy to edit all the ypos, english errors, tenses, grammars etc, just read and dotn complain. LOL!]

Just read peishan's blog post.

and, i realised. i, too wanna try dropping dead and lie on the ground doing absoulutely nth at all for the whole day. i wonder how it feels. it sounds awesome to me though!

many people are facing all sorts of problems these days.

actually 70% of my good/bestfriends are. Though each and every individual of them has got their very own problems, yet they are still concerned and sweet towards me and updated of my every movements.

it's really a down period for everyone.

when i have one day of happiness, i faced two days of darkness. when i'm actually seeing bright blue sky, in actual fact im stuck looming around the big black hole. im just looking right up knowing someday i'll reach back there again.

but, seriously. when will that day ever come?

this is the first time fear looms over me. worry consumes me. lost engulfs me. stress entangles me. negativity locks me.

friends. define definition?
stabs you when you need them? kicks you when you're alrdy on your last breath?

or the beautiful ones i own.
hugs me when i've said nothing. pat me on my shoulder and say all will be good. loves me unconditionally. cries with me when im at the bottom of the pit.

two utter different kinds that matherine owns.

the first type is killing her, it's making her soul disappear, its dashing her character, her confidence.

in exact, her.

the second type is supporting her. preventing her to fall. pulling her up whenever needed and never leave her in the lurch.

thanks all of you.

I really need time. and gosh, internship consumes the whole of my holidays!!!!!

but nevertheless im happy after spilling all negative things out.

btw, as follow is my internship details: [for benefits of those interested in dating me out after work or weekends!] =))))

Company: Livewire Private Limited
Venue: 10 tampines road, flora centre [near Kovan]
working days: 5days week!!!!

omg! i was so excited when i came to know its a 5 days week!!!! hahahas. kept hearing about govt organisation being 6 days week etc. was still damn scared.

but, amen! the Lord is merciful and kind. and He loves me.

admist the darkness, i really see bright shiny stars. and thats all of you lovelies.

ps: i had a lovely dream. and woke up to a relatively cute and sweet msg too. ^^ loves!

Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - Make Some Noise lyrics

2009-08-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hi, if you people managed to get in, i hope you'll respect my privacy and my love towards you that i regard you as friend and not show this site to any other person.

thank you. ^^

hopefully when you're reading, you'll read in private too.

loves.

im not hiding anything from public. just that im sick of not being able to express myself freely these days as ppl will used malicious comments on their blog to "retaliate" whatever ive written.

=)) i treasure you and thats why you're here.

Loves!

2009-08-01T02:32:00.000+08:00

it has been a depressing week.

kinda the worse week ever. discovering more and more hidden stuffs everywhere. and for your knowledge, its so obvious they are all negative stuffs.

its one of those periods where laughter and joys still lingers in life cause there are still wonderfull people and things in life that's happening. but somehow you know things will never be the same again.

and now i wonder. really really really hard.
it's been days.

humans, what are they?

selfish animals who live on earth for their own beneficial needs?

as the days pass by, the ugliness of hypocrites were revealed. its so much you feel digusted. you feel utter disappointed and you feel lost. it's so horrifying that now, when i get to look beneath those masks only do i know what's true and genuine.

at least i know its all fake.

ThankGod. amen.

2009-08-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

what goes around comes back around.

watch where you're going in life, cause one day, its your turn. suckers!

2009-07-29T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hello people.

me am very tired.
and my dad just rejected in fetching me to school. and i had to carry the uber big boards to school tml, alone.

3 of them. 2 for BANG! flashmob. one for Booth.

How great.

and so many things tml. lecture rally. 2 sessions of flashmob. pmkt presentation. 2 session of flashmob again. Whose line "Scenes from the Hat" performance. booth and then home. HECTIC DAY!!!!

anyways, just FML.

some foreigner learnt chinese and wanted to put it to good use. instead of ordering his Pineapple Fried Rice He ordered Glass Rice. and this is how is goes.

我要玻璃炒饭

因为菠萝 bo luo 加 add 凤梨 feng li 等于 equals 玻璃 bo li。

我搞混乱了。

and yesterday i received someone's sms saying Singtel, M1, Starhub is having dont know what anniversary. hahas, didnt even bother to forward to anybody. cause ya know why? its not from their service provider.

use common sense also know its difficult for them to check or track if they are really executing smth like that. and i heard over the radio today that it's a SCAM!!!

LOL!. am so proud of myself that i didnt get cheated.

and i think its bedtime! ;DD

2009-07-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

a hectic week is coming my way.

prepare myself in battle mode! ;DD

BANG!!!

bang bang shootem all! hahas.

smth's wrong with my blogger's these days. the template to writing the post is always screwed with different problems. lousy. argh.

cant post up the video here.

next time then.

nights and swt dreams world. =))

2009-07-26T00:41:00.001+08:00

it's time to let go.

once some things change, they can never be the same again.

no matter how hard you try, the ending will forever remain.

thats when you move on, smile, and forget.

friends, i cant keep all. i cant please all.
but, those who are/were there, ill remember for life. those who had once laughed with me, remains deep in my heart.

all these while in life, matherine learnt one thing. and it applies 24/7.

nothing lasts forever.
except my God's love for me.

2009-07-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

On this day of your life, Matherine, we believe God wants you to know... ...

that faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty.

Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside. Now is the time to keep that faith alive!

from facebook. amen!

2009-07-25T22:41:00.005+08:00

awesome day yesterday and today and everyday.

=)) i cant promise i can be happy 24/7. all i can be is myself, positive and extremely crazy. i really enjoy laughing away with people.

and that was why i enjoyed dinner uber uber uber much ytd. it was crazy i swear. one of the worse time ever. i laughed so so so so hard my stomached really had a cramp. and it was a damn bad one somemore. LOL!

today was first step bazaar's performance. Love all of you dearies! GREAT JOB WELL DONE! ;DD proud of you.

07S11 was as usual. comfortable people to be with. Guna, Vinesh, Lester was talking about Army the WHOLE time. it was really amusing of the things they told us. hahas, had some laughs. =))

Guna and lester's pretty much of the same size as previously. But, omygosh! Vinesh is much different as he's much more buffed up now. unlike previously plump and sloppy.

though buff, he still looks like mickey mouse without the two black coiny ears. hahahas, damn cute! and he looks nice wearing spects.

latha, debbie and liyana grew to be prettier! ;DD love them loads. i miss angelin! shall have another meet up when she's back!

ps: i realised 07s11 people always had pastamania when they're tght. how weird. hahahas.

to love is to forget.
to love is to forgive.
to love is to forsake.

and only to love, will one be happy.
hate makes one sick, tired, drained.

matherine loves the world.
she shall not be so judgemental towards people anymore.
she shall not be calculative towards people for inthend its her beeing trapped in hate.

望了过去才能拥有未来！
所谓旧的不去，新的不来。

快乐与痛苦也环绕着同样的道理。

这小女孩终于领会了！

2009-07-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

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a new start.

i've shifted all the old posts to another url. it's protected though. only for me.

figured out its been years since i've been stucked with it.

it's time for a new change. like finally?

i'm gonna leave those bad memories behind, and keep those sweet ones treasured.

Life's only gonna be better each day. =))
dont you agree?

God loves me.
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